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One st. Pat's day i was wearing all black on st. pats day because i totally forgot about it lol

i forget EVERYYYYYYYTHING!!!

1) I would put My sock Monkey good memories from my childhood from him, all of my childhood friends would know and remember him.

2) My envy on the coast cd where i saw them live with Jeanette and Lauren, my favorite band in the whole wide world. My friends and i love them.

3) My mothers ring that she gave me. Its very special and i have worn it almost everyday and holds so many memories from past to present.

I come from the east coast so its natural to prefer New York City. However i did find that Chicago is interesting. It is cleaner that's for sure. But also had a buzz of excitement too. there are lots of different things to do. Also its a major stop for bands. I love the underground scene and experienced or myself!!!!! ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!!! if u ever get the chance go. Ill be sure to put some pics up!!!!

I think the best thing i ever have done was to finally be reunited with my family after 5 years of seperation. That i am forever thankful.

Its that bittersweet time, when you have to say goodbye and move into a new chapter in life. I am not graduating yet. I still have a year to go, but there are people i have to say goodbye to as well. I wish the best to my friends that are moving on to college. My boyfriend is moving on to college this is where i find my dilemma. He is my best friend, partner in crime, and keeper of my heart. But i feel college is something you need to enter with a fresh start, including relationships. I am only 17 and have yet to know what the future holds. My soul mate and intended could very well still be out there. But how to say goodbye to someone is never easy, or something i want to do. But it is one of those important life lessons that we have to learn. To break up with someone, is it to rid yourself romantically of them or to carry the memories you share and hope that the next person you meet will be one and answer that nagging question of whether it was the right choice or not? Or are you afraid that you wont meet anyone after them? Or is it just the fact that you cant handle the pain. Some break ups are easier than others. I dont know if its the amount of time you where with them or the connection you had. I dont know if i am making the right choice. Its a very confusion thing. I wrote in this journal in hopes i could organize my thoughts and maybe find the answer.... But have yet to find it.

Boys have to be the worst things on earth, we love them and we hate them. They can make girls very confused and very angry. They can break your heart and they can fix it. When we cry its seen as pathtic but when they cry its adorable beacuse girls are seen as awful man eating creatures while the guy is this sweet innocent victim. When they do something hurtful we blame it on ourselves, where is the balance? grrrrrrr i have to admit i write amazing when i am angry.

The night was certainly an interesting one as i sit here typing and watching lauren and julia play brawl. The day was very uneventful but when lauren picked me up the fun truly began. Whats a long night of fun without caffine? A trip to starbucks was in order. A mocca latte later lauren and i are sitting in starbucks discussing the important issues in the world...ok well the music indie scene and college and other aspects of teenage mind slowly refusing to become and adult. And of course how hot george is. We were waiting for our dearest julia to get home. The starbucks was starting to fill with people over the age of 25 pointing out our ages quite obviously in the crowd. So we decided to go drive around and blast music. While on our little drive we made a little expidititon to the First Wok to get some delious fries. The rest of the story to be continued after some much needed sleep......

Most boys when young are taught to be a gentleman. Such as being nice and complimenting them and helping them. Thats not a bad lesson, however when a boy helps you when help is not needed its an annoying habit. My boyfriend has a habit of this, and its quite annoying. Well he is an apple person Yay apple rules, unfortunately in my house my dad is a dell person and therefor we have dells. Tonight my bf was trying to find something on a dell labtop he was incapable of finding it due to the fact he is use to apples. I for once could see that he needed help however he said he didnt need it and that he wants to figure it out himself. this pisses me off and i used this as an example to him, he brushes this off. GRRRRRR this makes me soooooooooooooooooo angry!!! ehhhh thank god for lj!!!! goodnight everyone

It was one of those days where everything goes wrong. And nothing you do makes u feel any less crummy. Although i am afraid to whine or complain because the book catcher in the rye ruined that for me. I refuse to ever be compared to Holden. My friend Jeanette and i were talking about the HSPA's. We decided that the HSPAS are simply GEPA'S with the word GEPA crossed out on the top. Silly Standardized testing. Boo seniors that get to sleep in while we suffer. But next year that will be me :p laterssssss lj

Omg so today i woke up with the need to clean. i didnt go to bed until 4:30 in the morning. yeah well i spent that time organizing. And once u organize one thing you have to do the rest. The dreaded domino effect. But after i cleaned the bathroom and bedroom top to bottom, i felt so much better. Then i had the best shower in the world, it was like the cleansing of mind, body and soul. There is nothing like a good cleaning to get rid of depression and stress. So besides my cleaning spurt i have been getting ready for hspas which everyone tells me is easy however i dont think its that easy. I really have trouble with math so i am not as confident about it. But my junior prom is coming up i cant wait. The love of my life is taking me!!! I get to show my joshie off to everyone there!! There is this really pretty bracelet that joshie is going to get me to wear with my dress. Dances really are not that big of a deal i just like to get dressed up and have a good time. I mean prom is so hyped up that i really dont want to go next year. Anyways enough for now, i am going out. laters everyone on lj.

So im checking out this lj stuff and suddenly find myself back in group therpy its wierd and not a bad thing. I just find it really brave for someone to express such personal feelings to thousands of strangers online. So to everyone out there thats brave enough to do that i give u my respect lol



from newb on lj

so i am new to all this stuff about lj but at first glance its confusing. I had a rough start to all of this cuz somethign went wrong when i had to create a bio, i decided to skip it i mean i have all the time in the world to tell the lj world about me. afterwards i didnt know what to do, do i post? and if i do what about? so here i am a newbs view to this confusing world of lj. what next?